of love and sadness

Saturday, February 28, 2004 [ 4:55 AM ] ; 0 replies

Well i got back my results. I've got 18 for L1R4 which is the good news. And thats the end of the good news. Bad news is...i failed maths. Which thus brings me back to square one. Im going back to school today to appeal to repeat. Sigh...

Friday, February 27, 2004 [ 1:19 AM ] ; 0 replies

1. You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold
as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is optimistic.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too
moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one which make you feel warmth and in-love always.

6. You can never be stabilized; actually, you are not suitable for
marriage and you don't want to make committment.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you don't want to be tied down by a steady
relationship, you just want to flirt around.

http://www.naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm

seems like some is quite true la...

Monday, February 23, 2004 [ 2:46 AM ] ; 0 replies

Just show that was very touching....

Its about this korean guy and jap gal...the guy was an aspiring director and she was an saleswoman. They met each other in hong kong by a twist of fate. Interestingly...the gal was robbed and she ran after the thief. Surprisingly...the thief wore the same clothes as the guy did and she accidentally mistook him for the thief...she knocked him down and created a huge hoo ha at the police station. After the guy had proved his innocence...the both of them were walking along the street when she spotted the thief (what a coincidence right?) anyway...both of them ran after the thief but failed to catch him anyway. Sigh besides this part is not interesting haha...so i shall skip it.

The both of them spent some time together in hong kong visiting tourist attractions and basically just playing around. On their last day together...they were at this kinda river. Sort of looked like the the place at esplanade. Where you can see the skyline of the buildings. It was really beautiful. Back to the story...they exchanged tokens. Him giving her his cap while she gave him a key chain with "dreams coming true" on it. After that she pecked him on his cheek and vice versa. Haha...kinda expected anyway...there were fireworks going on and the ambience was kinda romantic.

Sadly...the both of them had to go their seperate ways. The guy back to korea and the gal back to japan. But before that...they exchanged email adds so they could contact each other in the future.

Back in japan...the gal found herself thinking about him constantly and decided to send him an email...thus lead to them sending emails to each other and not surprisingly, causing both of them to fall in love with each other. The gal decided to go to korea for a holiday and to see him. She sent him an email but just at that time...he went back to his hometown to see his parents. Typical korean movie. Hahah...so she ended up waiting at the hotel for a few days instead of following her tour group around and pining for him. My heart goes out to her...she was really sweet looking. Haha...anyway. Typical story. The guy another female fren who had a crush on him. She saw the email and read it since the guy wasnt around. Out of jealousy...she deleted it to prevent the guy from knowing.

Finally...he went back and checked to see whether there were any emails. when he found out there wasnt any...he was really disappointed. Well...at least his fren had a conscience. Seeing his disappointment, and partly she couldn't live with what she did. She apologized to him and told him what she did. The guy ran all the way to the hotel to look for her but coincindentally...she wasnt in. How wonderful.

He then ran the streets looking for her and i think you guys know the chance of him finding her is like zlich? Anyway...he caught a glimpse of her and ran after her. They reconciled in front of a cinema. He then brought her round to see the sights...u know...typical date. Haha and they ended up at the riverside again. (Whats with all the rivers? think the directors must be running out of ideas.) Anyway...this time they shared a romantic kiss under the moonlight.

They made a promise that he would go to tokyo to look for her. So he started taking odd jobs just to pay for his air fare there...but as fate would have it, there was going to be a film convention in japan and the sch was going to pay for everything...including meals and lodging. He jumped at the chance to go and went to japan. At the last day of the film convention, he went to tokyo to see her. (She works at takashimaya btw) Before going there...he called her workplace and left a message with a guy colleague that answered the phone that he was going to see her at 7pm at night.

He found his way to her workplace amazingly and on the way...even managed to buy some flowers. Reaching the floor she worked on...he was looking for her when the guy that accepted his msg approached him and asked him for a chat. He told the poor korean guy that he loved her and said one thing that i will always remember.

"Are u able to make her happy? To be able to take care of her? Never to let her be hurt? Do not forget...u are still a student..."

He went on to say he could give her happiness and anything she wanted. Bleah...the korean guy was quite shocked and struck by how right the colleague was. He dropped the flowers and went off...back to the airport. Anyway...the colleague suffered from guilty conscience(again? whats with all this people? Backstab liao then say sorry. Abit too late right?) and told her what he had done and apologized...

She was very hurt and disappointed and ran off after admonishing him. Not to mention giving him a slap. Haha...after that she sent him an email apologizing. But his room mate seeing the email...replied to her asking her to give up since he has already been called up for national service. She than resolved to go to korea again to look for him...seems like its going to continue next week.

Are u able to make her happy? To be able to take care of her? Never to let her be hurt? Do not forget...u are still a student.. This words really strike me...and i am always afraid of the consequences of falling in love. Sigh...

Sunday, February 22, 2004 [ 3:02 PM ] ; 0 replies

Message: A guy and a girl can be just friends...
but at
one point or another one of them will fall for
the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the
wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just
maybe... forever....

As I sat there in english class, I stared at the
girl next to me. She was my so called 'best
friend'. I stared at her long, silky hair, and
wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me
like that, and I knew it.

After class, she walked up to me and asked me
for the notes she had missed the day before. I
handed them to her. She said thanks' and gave me
a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want
her to know that I dont want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy, and I dont know
why.

**************** 11th grade ****************

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her.
She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how
her love had broke her heart. She asked me to
come over because she didn't want to be alone,
so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I
stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and
three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me, said 'thanks' . I love her but
I'm just too shy, and I dont know why.

**************** Senior year ****************
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My
date is sick" she said, he's not gonna go" well,
I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made
a promise that if neither of us had dates, we
would go together- just as 'best friends'. So we
did. Prom night, after everything was over, I
was standing at her front door step. I stared at
her as she smiled at me and stared at me with
her crystal eyes. Then she said- "I had the best
time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know that I
dont want to be just friends but I'm just too
shy. A day passed, then a week, then a month.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I
watched as her perfect body floated like an
angle up on stage to get her diploma.

Before everyone went home, she came to me in her
smock and hat, and cried as i hugged her. Then
she lifted her head from my shoulder and said-
'you're my best friend, thanks' and gave me a
kiss on the cheek.

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl
is getting married. That girl is getting married
now. I watched her say 'i do' and drive off to
her new life, married to another man. I wanted
her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it. But before she drove away, she
came to me and said 'you came!'She said 'thanks'
and kissed me on the cheek.

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a
girl who used to be my 'best friend'. At the
service, they read diary entry she had wrote in
her high school years.

This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he
was mine; but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to
know that I don't want to be just friends, love
him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me!
'I wish I did too...' I thought to my self, and
i cried.

Do yourself a favour.... tell her/him that you
love them. Even if you don't know how they'll
react, just let them know how you 'really' feel
about them. They won't be there forever. Pass
this on to others

Saturday, February 21, 2004 [ 1:03 AM ] ; 0 replies

Sometimes...things are not the way they seem. If you take life too seriously, you'll miss out on the beautiful things...

Tuesday, February 17, 2004 [ 1:55 AM ] ; 0 replies

By the time u realise someone's really important to you...its too late.

Wednesday, February 11, 2004 [ 10:07 PM ] ; 0 replies

Well din have the mood to update for yesterday so here goes. Went to meet Terence at plaza sing today cuz we wanted to go to the airport to see wendy sim off. Well he told me that shi min was going off too. What a coincidence. So when i reached there. He and his friends wanted to go to carrefour to get some sushi. I was like ok lets go. Then they said suntec carrefour. And i was thinking i could have just dropped at city hall and waited for u guys huh. Decided to walk to suntec from plaza sing. Quite a nice walk actually. One of his friends talked alot of crap and kept us entertained throughout the walk.

Terence then had the bright idea to go to starbucks and sit down. Since we were using the city link anyway. Which was nonsense cuz i think walking above ground would have took a shorter time but they wanted the aircon so sigh. Anyway...went to starbucks and drank mocha frap i think. Not sure what is it but one thing's for sure. Its expensive. Bleah...wasted 5 bucks on coffee. Or is it expresso. Anyway...followed them to carrefour to get their sushi. Wanted to buy the eel buy on 2nd thoughts...decided against it as i din want to lunge an eel around changi.

Went to ceaser's and looked at Auduril again. Saw the glamdring that i liked. Gandalf's sword. Its so nice....But im thinking where the hell can i put such a long sword in my room? Nvm. Terence bought the 3 original lord of the rings posters each costing 20 bucks. Its like so damn nice except for a line which was caused by the lamination. Well it was the original poster so the color was extremely riched. Wanted to buy but decided against it.

So ya...off to the airport. Went to the burger king to sit down. Its right at the entrance after u come out from the mrt station in T2. Saw des and mindy but din go over to say hello. Guess by that time i was too emotionally drained. After waiting till 610 i concluded that kok and co. was late. Again. They arrived around 620 with amos and yishen and jean. So i was wondering how come my class gang is here.(Yishen des and amos my class clique. Jean's elgene's gf while mindy's des.) back to the point...went after amos and shen and asked them what they were doing here. Told me kelvin was leaving for australia and they were seeing him off. Oh yea...so thats why des and mindy was here. Decided to go over to T1 to see kelvin off since wendy havent even arrived yet. Saw the old gang there and as usual...they were just clowning around. My class wasnt dubbed the laughter clowns of sas for nothing. Kelvin cried abit. Hugged some gals. Went in. Haha...some things just nvr change. The gals. After that rushed back to T2 to see wendy off.

Wendy had a larger group of ppl. Most were band ppl actually so its not surprising. Alot of ppl seemed to give her soft toys and stuff like that. Like so common. She was moaning like how is she supposed to get all these stuff onto the plane since her luggage is like overweight and everything. Everyone came up with suggestions like choose the bear u like most or tape it around ur body and pretend u're pregnant. Then i said uh....u can just bring all of them in and when u come across the first rubbish bin, just dump them away. After all...i think mine is the most practical. Maybe cuz at that time i wasnt very happy with what was going on with my other fren so i wasnt in the mood to joke. Saw shi min off too. He was taking the raffles class ticket dammit. Some ppl just have all the luck in the world. Well when wendy was about to go in some people were tearing. Like colin and izzat. Maybe they cant bear her to go ya? Haha...ok serious. A final band courtesy of thanks ms sim. She was off. And i went off too. Too emotionally drained to do anything else.

This world is just a huge circus and all of us are part of it. How wonderful huh. Seems like this is my longest entry yet...and i din even bother to put in most of the details. Maybe if im in the mood...

Monday, February 09, 2004 [ 4:38 PM ] ; 0 replies

Went to work today. Ever get cut by ice b4? I got cut today...went into the cold room so many times to take things and kept rubbing my hands agains the ice. In the end my hands turn red and my knuckles was bloody. Unbelievable...bleah...anyway got my pay already. Yay...can finally buy some stuff i want to buy. Read streats and turned to my horoscope. Seems to me like isolation is not the best way. And something like i should have more company with others. Quite true. Ahah...enough about those rubbish.

Today's lunch time was really busy. Only vion, albert and me doing outside. Auntie annie had to make mini fruit tarts so she couldn't help us. Think she made about 180 minis. Well most of the people in the store is unhappy with vion cuz she always slacks and yet talk alot of rubbish. Well...shall keep my comments to myself. The usual pretty gals were around as usual but saw this gal today that is new i presume. She brings a whole new meaning to sweetness. Would have got smitten with her if she was my age. She could give BoA a run for her money ok. Sheesh...not concentrating on my work but instead concentrating more on the ladies. Sorry guys for reading this...i really have nothing else to talk about haha. Anyway....

Liverpool drew with bolton to make them go 5 games without a win. As a liverpool fan...i feel kinda sad. I really want them to qualify for the next season's champion's league and not let charlton or newcastle make it.

You'll never walk alone.

Saturday, February 07, 2004 [ 8:17 PM ] ; 0 replies

Accidentally screwed up some html coding and couldn't publish my blog. Took me one whole day today to tinker around before managing to resolve this. Hahaha...ok enough. Not going to sajc band prac anymore. Felt that it was quite useless and unproductive. Besides seeing some of the people there really gives me a headache. I prefer not to talk to much bout them. I'll get irritated. Majorly.

Well...din attend alumni prac today since liang shi and addison wasnt going. Whats the fun in going alone without my batch mates. Moreover wayne din want to go either. So I've got no reason to go myself and be bored. Sps pop was supposed to be today. Din bother to go although sps is like so near my house.

Nothing much to do nowadays. Like just rotting away at home and working. Waiting for Os to come out so i can know what to do. Till now i still cant decide whether to buy a dvd player or ipod. Or maybe i'll just get another phone. Saw the nokia 7200. The design looks nice. Or maybe it just looks appealing to me.

The girl on my display pic in msn. Quite alot of ppl say she looks like celest chong. Hahah got quite tired of telling them its not.Remembered adriel is flying off to australia today. Like so many students going overseas to study lo. I wonder whats so bad about singapore. Maybe because of the lousy pressure? My parents offered to send me there but i declined. Din exactly relish the thought of going over there alone. Well good luck to him. When he comes back 2 years later...he'll have a degree. Lucky idiot. Sigh...i've got so many things i want to buy. So little cash. Life's not really that bright. Bleahx.

Thursday, February 05, 2004 [ 9:31 PM ] ; 0 replies

Apathy, well I can say your lucky, in some ways.
You see Apathy is no emotion, basically you
don't care. But that does not make you a bad
person. Some of my friends are apathetic and I
love them, but it wouldn't hurt to care a
little more. Trust me life hurts, most people
who are apathetic do it cause they were hurt.
But don't worry, life is pain, its also
pleasure. Good luck. (please vote)

What Emotion Dominates you?
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[ 9:03 PM ] ; 0 replies

Life's pretty boring nowadays. Hate it. Literally. I wish i was back at school studying. At least there are friends there that i can joke around with. Or...maybe not. Well...back to the job. Everyday monotone life. Work. Go home. Sit at the comp. Sleep. Wake up. Work...and the routine goes on. Boring, no? Well...at least at Raffles Place you get to see quite a no. of decent to cute gals. Well...like 1 out of 10 will be cute? And 1 out of 5 of those cute ones will be a really pretty ones. Seen one of the ladies.

One of these pretty ones is a lady that often come over and have a pepsi twist. Hahah...pretty weird. Coming to delifrance and just getting a pepsi twist. The pepsi twist cost 2 bucks and imagine going to delifrance everyday twice to drink pepsi. Thats 4 bucks gone. Well...not that i mind her coming anyway. Ha! Already 25, and predictable. Next is another malay gal nair manicurist from the nail manicure shop beside delifrance. She's really cute la. Speaking from a chinese guy point of view.

Sheesh...feel weird talking about the ladies. Nvm...just my thoughts ya? Talking about delifrance. Reminds me that 2 gals just came to apply for a job. Supposedly they are my age and heard from vion that one of them stopped schooling in sec 3. Well i suppose its the one with golden hair. Hahah...doest take a genius to guess that. They seem like pretty nice girls at any rate. At least after kok leong gets called up for NS i wont be forced to work everyday. Better...if not i might collapse.

Saw my primary sch friend today. Think he's in ite paya lebar i think. Dunno whats the name of that ite anyway. Still looks the same. Seeing him reminds me of how fast time flies...sooner or later i'll have to come out to the working world already. Having some taste of it already, cant say im exactly enthusiastic. But what to do. I've got to do it. If not whos going to take care of me. Finally passed ziyan her present. Christmas present. Haha...in feb. At least i finally did what i meant to do since jan. And she gave me a wallet. Fortune duck. Haha how nice. But now it means i've got 2 new wallets. A gucci wallet and a fortune duck wallet. How? Im not that sure either.

Listening to come what may. By josh groban. Its techno. Oh my...but at least i dun mind it though cuz its nice. This reminds me. I gotta go get the simple plan album.

Have still yet to decide to buy a home theatre or ipod. Sigh...

Monday, February 02, 2004 [ 3:04 PM ] ; 0 replies

Hari Raya Haji today. Happy Hari Raya Haji to all the malays that happens to read this. Pretty uneventful day so far. I've been stoning at this comp since 11am in the morning when i woke up. Been sleeping and waking up late all the time recently. Suppose this is not very good for the health but seriously i dun think anyone really cares, not even myself. Layne asked me to go out with her again. With huini elim shin zerg and weiliang. Seeing that i dun quite like some of the people there. I turned her down. Sorry layne, maybe some other time.
Anyway i've managed to do something wrong again. Wonder whats with myself. Always managing to make other people upset seems to be my forte. And i definitely do not like this forte.
Anyway just to say sorry to my friend(and i really dun know if u still regard me as that), shouldn't have done what i done. But i did not know u didn't want anybody to read it. Seriously, im really sorry. But there are other people out there worrying for you. Not my problem or what, but...never mind. I think i'll shut up.

A thousand apologies.