Sunday, October 31, 2004 [ 10:27 PM ] ;
0 repliesStudied history again. For the umpteenth time. I am so overly stressed for Os that im surprised i havent started growing white hair yet. Yet. DAMN. And i still think i cant remember all the facts. ARGH! Especially the features of the federation of malaya. Shucks. HOW HOW HOW.
Went to ubi to play soccer today. When i got there i realised they all were about to start and all. Then saw yaofeng and kok hoe sitting there stoning. Asked yaofeng why he wasnt on the pitch and he muttered something about dominic being the captain and no more liang shi thats why the team now is so sucky. Haha decided not to give any comments on that and sat down to watch. After that heard from uncle mak that the timeslot we were supposed to play was 3-5 and not 5-7 as previously thought. How jacked right? Then after watching them play for 20mins like that the original teams wanted to take over already. Then we all went on to st gab's there to continue our own soccer team. For the very first time though, i played with farhan and co. A technically very good midfield in terms of technique, i thought i could finally win my first game. Haha however we still drew 2-2. At least not bad, i've stopped losing my games. Whoo! And i got to attack more this time since they distributed the ball more often.
I am worried over my Os. My promotional results. My family. Everything. Life's a mess. Bleah.
Eh fuck la. I've been having these stupid nightmares the past couple of nights about the Os. I mean how can this be? I didnt have them last year. A couple variations too. Damn.
Variation no.1 - This being me going out and forgetting that my physics and history paper are on wednesday. By the time i realised i had missed my papers it was already too late. Meaning if i miss a paper i dun need to take the other papers since i'll be marked absent. Like wtf? And the dream me was like panicking and all, and about to cry since i wasted my chance? A very rare occasion for me to break down.
Variation no.2 - Im taking my history paper, and i realised i dun know how to answer the questions (cuz most of them are from the chpts that i didnt study, ie they came out last year and we often skip the topics that just came out) And then i started panicking (again) since i hold high hopes for history and want to get good grades for it. Its starting to stress me out. Again, i feel like crying and was quite relieved when i woke up and realised it was a dream.
Luckily till now what i dream about is only history and missing the papers. It must have been me fearing that i havent studied enough. I...dun really know what to say. Sigh.
About to breakdown =(
Saturday, October 30, 2004 [ 9:42 PM ] ;
0 repliesSaw this scary girl/guy/it hybrid at PS. "He" had breasts implants and was wearing a miniskirt. Was quite hilarious and traumatising. Wished i didnt see that but had a good laugh with my friends anyway. Kudos to ignatius that has this flair for spotting weird people. Ha!
I think i shld just take things as they come. Although i might not have done all i could. I have managed to do what i can with the limited time given to me. I am one hell of an unlucky person. Bought 2 cds to help me relax, myleene klass and classic meets cuba. 2 very good cds, u guys shld try to purchase it if u can, especially myleene klass. Nice kind of new age fusion piano playing.
Should i change my blogskin? It seems to be getting stale.
"All u have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to you." Gandalf, Lord of the Rings, Return of the King.
Friday, October 29, 2004 [ 10:05 PM ] ;
0 repliesstress
defn:- A state of extreme difficulty, pressure, or strain also known as apprehensive, anxiety.
What Im feeling now. AH!!!!
Wednesday, October 27, 2004 [ 10:09 PM ] ;
0 repliesFinished my physics. Almost done with SEA history. Emaths. A question mark. I've done all i could. It now all boils down to fate already. Soon it'll be European history, biology. Thinking, i shld be able to do them with lil or no problem at all.
Praying for a miracle.
Monday, October 25, 2004 [ 10:45 PM ] ;
0 repliesskipped school today and i finally studied! Yay~ am so proud of myself.
It will all be over in 5 weeks time. Im looking forward to the end of Os and the start of school next year. WHoo~
Friday, October 22, 2004 [ 1:26 PM ] ;
0 repliesThe science practicals were kinda ok ay...hopefully i'll score well for them. Anyway...results for the promos will only be released next friday. So meanwhile im taking the time to practice emaths whenever i could. Not to forget my stupid physics too. Damn. Am looking forward to meet my friends tmr for the prata date. Yum...
2 more weeks to Os, 6 more weeks till its all over. Hopefully this 6 weeks will pass quickly. I really hope i'll be able to get out to somewhere where the sun shines brighter(inside joke with my MI friends) Anyway, results only come with hard work. I am trying to MUG now. Its a added advantage to take Os the 2nd time since i have some experience and now i seem to understand my work much easier than last year. Whooo!~
Huini suggested eating oreos and studying at night. Maybe i shld try it. Who wants to sponsor my oreos? Hahas.
My mom finally got rid of my fish for me. *sigh*
Its gonna rain soon...cant the weather just let my cycle for once? ARgh.
Sunday, October 17, 2004 [ 11:29 PM ] ;
0 repliesIm bumming around waiting for my practicals to happen! Haha...will it be a disaster? I hope not. Hopefully i'll scrape through it with decent marks.
Things are not really going my way, but thats life i guess.
At least im taking them really well...
...must have gotten used to these kinda things i guessed. Have been experiencing way too many shocks to and i kinda get immuned when anything strange happens again.
Did i tell you? I need a job people.
Friday, October 15, 2004 [ 10:54 AM ] ;
0 repliesFinally done. Finished my promos and a thorn out of the way. Yes! Now...i can concentrate on my Os even if i havent really started yet. BUt! Its time to start if i really want to go somewhere. Cant afford to let my parents down again. Besides cant waste the money paid for the papers already. Just go there and do my best.
Havent been going to jenny's lately...i wonder what she'll be thinking. Its been a long time since i touched maths. I ought to finish abit of sums in paper2 tonight then. HAha...3 weeks to Os, maybe only 2+ weeks. God help me. I need a miracle. *Starting to panic*
Did i tell you my fish has been struggling to die for about 1 month plus already? It still havent gave up on its life yet and is still going on. Sigh.
Saturday, October 09, 2004 [ 10:28 PM ] ;
0 repliesHad GP paper today. One subject down, 4 more to go. The paper was quite ok...hopefully i'll scrape by with a decent pass *prays* Anyway, was late for the paper by 10mins and when i stepped in, could see that alicia ng was very relieved to see me.
After the paper, while waiting for the bus to go for lunch, received a call from kok hoe asking me to go down to sajc to help them play against student council for a soccer match. Then i told him i didnt want to play cuz i'll feel like damn extra but he said "ok la, u dun play u come down watch can." I agreed and guess what he said? "eh when u come down watch bring your stuff just in case." Talk about being persistent.
Went to eat korean food at sg post with sk and dom again. Gotta say i enjoy that stuff. Its damn addictive. Im turning into a korean food freak. By the time we finished our food it was around 12:35 already, and the match was like at 1. So i had to go withdraw some money for the cab there and i went home to take my stuff.
By the time i went out of home it was 12:50. At least im lucky enough to hail a cab after i stepped out of hse. After i got into the cab i received a call from selina, asking me where i was. And she said they're not going to start until i reach there. I was like why dun u guys start first since i'll reach there soon enough? Anyway that taxi driver probably sensed my urgency and started going faster on the ECP. I was like watching him gradually nudging the speedometer slowly over 110km/h and i started to fear for my life. Bleah....
When i got there i could see they were serious in waiting for me cuz they havent started yet. HAha...im so honoured. Anyway the match was quite ok(for me) and sajc band won student council 12-2. Hahah...quite a slack game for me since i didnt do much.
After the match went to parkway with sala and walked and talked for awhile about the stress of the A levels education system and about how kids are changing nowadays unlike us last time. Those people from band would understand.
This has been a really longwinded post.
Anyway, mugging session starts now.
Friday, October 08, 2004 [ 8:41 PM ] ;
0 repliesExams are here! *insert maniacal laughter by terrance* Im taking it pretty well am i not? *cue in laughter again*
Maybe...just maybe, i'll be able to scrape past everything and get good enough results to get to somewhere better. I still remain optimistic.
Yay! Finally got my Variations I&II...now im look for the klazz meets cuba cd. Another trip to hmv has to be made. Bleah. Hate going there. So hard for me to go home.
Time shld pass quick quick quick. In a flash i'll have finished everything and would have gotten a load of my chest. Meanwhile, mugging's the way to go for the next month. Every single day. Sigh...
Am sooooooo tired. Fatigue is plaguing my body frame. So irritating. Lets play some Maksim and soothe my mind! HEh. *cue in classical music*
Tuesday, October 05, 2004 [ 7:35 PM ] ;
0 repliesAlrightttttt...I suppose now is finally the time i ought to start hitting my books and hitting them as hard as i can. 4 days left to the start of promos and hopefully, just hopefully, i can pull this off and get promoted next year. I've seen everyone start studying already and Im not even feeling a sense of urgency. Hahah...tis bad.
Had pizzas again today during break time. I think my class is pioneering the start of the food revolution in MI already.
Shld i really get a new comp or just upgrade my current one?
"Everyone has the privilege to be stupid at times. Just don't abuse that privilege." Alicia Ng
